blog of yokesin

2009-08-30T01:15:00.002+08:00

ahh!!! peoples!!

so long didn't update my blog already!
did you guys miss me??? haha!!

well, just come back home from celebrating BFF Hil's birthday!!
i am so happy for her. found a guy that she loved and one that loved her too.
HI, Timothy!!
nice to meet you! haha!! our first time meeting, so not really much to talked abt.
but it's okay. there's alot of time.
and next time, get your guys out too! lols!!

so fast and half a year is already gone. haha!!
and it's gonna be my birthday soon. on the christmas's eve, girls!

although most of you guys can't really celebrate with me.
okay, that is like so far from my birthday so SKIP!

next will be alinia's birthday!! haha!
i am so excited while thinking of it now.
and hope to meet adriel and daryl too! heh! (:

well, that's all for today now!

goodnight girls!

and happy birthday, BFF!
love you forever, Hil!

signing off at 3, 2, 1......

2009-05-04T20:42:00.003+08:00

Hey, everybody.

it's been so long since i blogged.

things have happened. i have changed my position to cashier now.
from westmall to rafflescity.
well, i miss my westmall's colleagues and friends.
but it's okay. i will go back there someday.
anyway i'm just trying out as cashier, my position will be changed back once i familiarize with all the stuff.

i cried when i leave westmall. i don't know why.
maybe the people there are nice to me, that i don't feel like leaving??
haha!! and my 2nd ic and my senior thought my boss scolded me, so they went in to the office and confronted him.
HAHAH!!! such nice colleagues.

at rafflescity harvey, there's lots of angmoh.
there's this angmoh lady that came to pay money.
she ask me some questions.

Lady: how old are you, darling?
Me: you are asking how old am i?
Lady: ya.
Me: i'm 18. :)
Lady: oh. so young! i thought you were 14!
Me: haha!
Lady: part-time job?
Me: no. full time.
Lady: not studying anymore?
Me: ha. results not really outstanding.
Lady: aw.
maybe feeling bad she say.
Lady: anyway, who cares? haha.
so i just laugh.
Lady: anyway, you really a pretty girl.
Me: (in a shock mood) thanks!

and she took her stuff and change and left.

wahs, i was really flattered.
haha. nobody have ever say i'm pretty.
what more, she's a angmoh that really pretty herself.

2009-03-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

today's work was boring, lokking for customers to serve.
and today's friday the 13th, so like nobody wanna step out of the house.
so sway, but i sell a total of 1200 plus.

ytd was better, 2600!
cool! my next month salary will be like woah!
yes!
nothing to do at work, so just look around.

look at the staff.realise that they were such nice person.
harold was being the cashier temporary this noon, cause the cashier go have lunch.
i realise that he talk so soft, just like a kitten.
haha! i dont know why, something we walk past each other like so dao.
like we were waiting for each other to smile.

hmmm. why i can get along with the other male staffs except for him.
maybe because we are those 'you dint talk so i wont talk' kinda person.
sometime it was damn funny, it was like i want to smile at him, then he give me those dao face.
then when he wanna smile at me, i would happen to have a dao face.
what can i say about us? hah! speechless.
the only time we talk is when i bring my customer to the cashier for paying.
and he would ask what's your saleman code? i would say 4392.
then i would read out the product SKU to him and the price.
and that's all. it's like we never really start a conversation before.

anyways, one day we will talk.
maybe he's or i'm the one who starts a conversation first.

2009-02-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

BOLERO is nice. prefect harmony and all.
hmm.

today at work is boring! YEA! tmr off day again.
YES!!

please be friendly with me, and i'll do that to you too.
i thought you were those friendly type, from the way you talk to your colleagues.
maybe you were not that close to me.
anyways, we never really did talk.

some funny things happens today, but i dont know how to say it.
so if you all wanna know, meet me and i'll tell you.

my colleagues are such nice person.
getting closer and closer each day.
talking more and more.
knowing more and more people out of the IT dept.

overall, westmall harvey norman staff is nice!
:)

yokey!
goodnights everyone!

2009-02-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

haha. not like lahs, just a feeling.

yes!! friday off day! woohoo!!

i'm so happy. but i wont be able to see H.
to alinia: to me, i think he handsome la, maybe you all dont think so.
but he should be quite nice. skinny like me. haha.

wahs, next month salary is so gonna be the thing of my life.
i love my job. getting more close to my friends at work.

so far i know name and the person is : gavin, cindy, trevor, angel, fino, han jing, kee gen, mak and william.
know only the name but dint talk is : harold, ricky(av manager), yee voon, and all the cashiers.

haha! and one thing, my manager name is WILLIAM TEO YOKE CHOON!!
haha. i laugh like siao when fino told me that.
they say maybe he's my long lost brother. but no thanks!

and he's like 30 plus. eww.
harold's better. (:

2009-02-24T20:18:00.002+08:00

do you guys ever have been attracted to an opposite sex for no reason?

hmmm...

have you ever wondered his age? whether he's single?

hmmm...

is this like a crush or just purely attraction?

i've been thinking about this for these few days.
maybe it's time i have a bf before i think too much.

haha! but it's hard to find someone who likes/loves you like you feel for them.
couples.. sometimes i envy them. while on the other side, i hate it too.

harvey norman got some handsome guys. (to me lahs)
but we don't talk, don't know each other.

but i do like my colleagues, they are a bunch of nice people.

except for my manager, i wonder if i can endure for how long with him around.
i'll do my best.

i frozed when you pass by me.

back again~!

2009-02-14T21:11:00.002+08:00

woahs! i'm back again after disappearing after so long from the net.
my computer has spoilt, now i got a new one.
that's why i'm writing a post now.

well, having a job soon.
yeps, money money coming in. means i can have money for the class gathering.
GREAT! i love money. the smell of money makes me happy.

been doing alot of datong-ing.
love him man.
i hope he comes out another album. then i'm gonna buy it.

haha. maybe on my birthday do me something about datong.
but still long la. haha.

anyways, welcome me back.

till then,
adieu!

2009-01-30T11:24:00.001+08:00

2009-01-29T23:40:00.009+08:00

peculiar

2009-01-29T23:24:00.008+08:00

hmm. it's sort of strange.
i don't really like china people, but i like him. (khalil, fang da tong)

he's an ABC.born at hawaii, but he moved to shanghai at the age of 6. so that makes him half china-people.
and when he speak, there's a little china accent in it.
i don't know why but i still like him. adorable and shy.

and he's so cool. he learns drums, piano, guitar, martial arts, michael jackson's dance.
he's a wonderful person actually, i sort of like the way he speak.
he write and create brilliant songs and tunes.
talented person. now then i realize shanghai is actually at china. dumb.
alot of people may not think he's good-looking, but he's attractive in his own ways.

musically talented, my husband next time must be like this. so romantic.
i like R&B music. maybe i should go write songs, send in demo. hahas. just kidding.
it's like so difficult in singapore.

well, i'm supporting khalil now.
and he's good friend with 蕭敬騰.
because they don't talk much. lols. funny pair.

adieu.

hehe

2009-01-20T00:20:00.003+08:00

haha!
i'm now talking to izzy on msn,while niaos go to bathe.
hahas, i just finished bathing too!
it was so cooling, but my hair is still wet.
lols!! after niaoss comes out, we are gg to slp le. ( izzy too)

haha!! first time i stayover at my BFF hse for so many days. haha!!
but my dad may be not very happy. hais!

nevermind lahs, tmr morning after sending alinia to the airport, i'm gg home straight.
if not later i go home later then my dad, he confirms even not happy.
well, i'm glad my mum understood me. thanks mum! (:
well, i also dont blame my dad either, maybe he worried or not used to me staying over at my friend's house.

but, hey! i'm 18 already!considered adult. i must learn to be independent.
at the same time, a little more freedom too.
haha!! that's what all teens and young adults needed, i guess.

orhhh!!! i miss my pillow. when i get home, i will first thing hugs my pillow and (sniff sniff) smell it~!
hahas!! you all may thinks i'm dirty or disgusting, but it's my own like 'jia siang' smell lors.

i'm coming, my pillow!!

well till here then!
bye! night too! (:
see ya girls on 6.30!

2009-01-12T21:38:00.001+08:00

hais

if one day i suddenly dies, means i'm tired of this world.
well, my death doesn't mean makes a difference anyway.

don't...

2009-01-12T18:12:00.002+08:00

don't call me guys and ladies.

if anything, text me.

i don't wanna talk.

i would cry.

don't...

2009-01-12T18:12:00.001+08:00

2009-01-12T18:08:00.001+08:00

i loves my family
i love my mum
i love my dad
i love my brother

i loves my lovelies

i hates my relatives
i hates my cousins
i hates exams

i hates myself.

end of story

F!

2009-01-12T18:03:00.002+08:00

this world sucks!
exams sucks!

nobody knows
nobody wanna knows
nobody cares
nobody wanna cares

until the day we dies
until the day we perished

life is so fragile
life is like shit

nobody understood me
nobody knows what i need
nobody knows what i want

today is a happy day
tomorrow a sad day
the day after is disastrous

yes, i'm weak
yes, i'm dumb
yes, i'm like shit
yes, i'm an idiot

and a bloody fucking fool.

ADIEU

WHOO!!

2009-01-11T23:36:00.013+08:00

hey hey!!! look who's here. It's Sam & Dean! Supernatural leads!
Jensen Ackles & Jared Padalecki- sexiest man on earth.
If only one is my boyfriend, hah! daydreaming again.
Both so dreamy. Well, in Supernatural, my favourite of the Winchester's brothers is SAM!
He is the one on the right. (Jared) Left is (Jensen)

Well, i'm starting to like Jensen more and more though.(although he is 30 in real life)
But... he's so freaking hot! I mean FREAKING!

Look at his face!! OMG! So handsome.
MORE PICS!!

I'm not being a sicko or what. But this pic is beautiful, don't you think!
So sexy, yet manly. Jensen rocks!
Now Jared coming up!!

He's 26 this year. Handsome too. I love J2!!

Isn't him HOT too, just like Jensen! I LOVE SUPERNATURAL!
Actually i watch supernatural because it's cool, and both J2 really knows how to act.

So Jensen and Jared is best friend since they started acting together in the SUPERNATURAL franchise.
COOL MAN! I'm so gonna keep watching till there's no more season left.

Now Dean (Jensen) is killed by another demon and was send to hell.
Waiting for the next episode. So I'll stick my eyes on AXN Beyond on Sat 8pm onwards to 2am i guess.
So nice and exciting, I wonder how Sam (Jared) is gonna coped w/o his brother beside him anymore.
Poor guy. And i hope Ruby will comes back and help Sam too. I hated Lilith!

In the third season, the plot of the show focuses on trying to save Dean from his deal. Along the way, they meet a demon named Ruby, who has an interest in Sam and claims to be able to help save Dean, as well as Bela Talbot, an "acquirer" and seller of occult objects who is constantly a thorn in their side. The brothers eventually manage to track down the demon who holds Dean's contract, a powerhouse named Lilith who also wants Sam dead. However, Sam and Ruby ultimately fail to save Dean, who is killed and sent to Hell. Season Four begins with Dean awakening dazed and confused in a grave, having been rescued by an angel named Castiel on orders from God. Sam on the other hand, has further developed his abilities with the help of Ruby during the months that Dean has been dead. It is soon revealed that Dean was revived to help stop Lilith's plan of breaking the 66 seals, which would let Lucifer walk free once again.

That's all!
Till then, ADIEU!

control over yourself (:

2009-01-05T22:56:00.003+08:00

sometimes having a little control over yourself or your feelings may be good.
maybe you din't do it purposely, but it's nice that you wld spare a thought for others.

we wld spared a thought for you too.
if you are unhappy abt smth, you can talk to us abt it.
let yourself out, no use keeping to yourself.
we are your friends, BFF!!
not smth that you shld give a black face to, and we have to give in to you.

your mood affects our mood too.
we got our own problems too, same as you!
but when we are with our friends, we feels happy.
because we cares for each other. we share our feelings and problems.
and this made us feels better.

so if YOU see this. if you think it's you, you should seriously thinks about what i say.
as for today's window shopping entry, i will blog abt it tmr.

currently i have no mood now.
so till then, adieu!!

"and so the lion fall for the lamb"
'-Twilight'

happy!

2009-01-04T13:53:00.003+08:00

yays!! happy man!

tomorrow going to collect spree items from alinia~!
tomorrow going window-shopping with hil and alinia.
like finally, i can go out with them two. haha!!
last time we used to go out like this, the three of us.
but as times passed, we seldom go out as threes le.

it's either i cant go out, or each have their own stuff to do.
think it's usually me la. haha!!
anyways still, i'm still happy. yay!

so this is for alinia.

tmr you meeting ferran at 11am at northpoint right?
i was thinking i meet you early want anot??
that we go mac eat breakfast first, if you wants la.
if don't want nvm, you accompany me, i go eat. haha!!! SAUSAGE MCMUFFIN! yummy~!

then after eating, we go return the watch to ferran.
after that, we go walk ard or what lohs, at the same time wait for time to pass.
then we take mrt to orchard and wait for hil, like that correct right?
we meeting hil at orchard? okays.

if you sees this, tell me can anot lohs.
you tag me lohs, or msg me!

ohh man!! can't wait for tmr!!
haha! till then! adieu!!

"i don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore"
'-Edward Cullen'

hmm

2009-01-03T18:45:00.001+08:00

and how do i change that woman face to mine?

or isit cant be changed? damn.
i find her quite pretty though. haha!

if it can be changed, can somebody teach me how to?
i'm toot at the pics stuff! haha!

Happy 2009! New Beginning!

2009-01-03T18:32:00.000+08:00

whoohoo! changed a new blogskin for the new year of 2009!

so guys, how do you think of my new blogskin?? nice right?
hahas. okays, maybe it's me thinking that way. lols!

hope a new year will bring about a new change and a new start for me and my dearest.
hope everyone will be healthy and STRONG!
hope for world peace! (:
hope for a better world for everyone!
hope i'll have lots of money. kaching!! (ohh, sounds of coins dropping! YAYS, USD! gotta go change to SGD now!)

haha!! having a daydream, wishful thinking. LOLS!

okays, so now wishing everyone a happy and hopeful new year!

till next time, adieu!

happy birthday to me! (:

2008-12-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

whee!!
back from sleepovers at erika's house.
it was fun and i loved it. thanks girls. (:

enjoyed myself alot. first time i celebrate my birthday with my BFF.
glad that i have them.

well, let's talk about yesterday.
first, i was suppose to meet alinia's babe. but cancelled.
so ended up, i meet izzy at yishun and we take 169 to erika's house.

then when we reach there, we went to the wrong door. luckily we were smart, and we din't knock.
if not, you all can imagine the scenario urself. haha!
then at last, we finally reach erika's house!
we put down our stuff then we accompany hil to the alan&guy salon, with ziming's mom driving us thre.
hil's rather satisfied with her hair by saying "i bet all the guys will be heads over heels on me when we go town later". haha! i can only say, YOU ARE OVERLY CONFIDENT.
but it's a good thing though. women must have alot of confidence for themselves.

next! after hil's finished, we went to buy tickets for twilight the movie.
it was nice. edward and his family is cool.
then erika went to jon's house, and we went to orchard for cam-whoring.
it's was fun. orchard was pretty!

after all then went back to erika's and started to bake cookies.
and chengyee fall asleep on the sofa. hah!

take turns to bathe, and after that went to slp. i'll skip the details.

TODAY! steamboating.
yumyum!! yummy yummy!!

i love food.
take photos and talked to DT.
and DT even reveal his face. haha! it's exciting.
anyways i enjoy the whole process!

i love the gift too, and the ahem ahem.
haha~!

now i was back and at home.
till here then. adieu!

burthday and more birthdays!

2008-11-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

ohh. so bored at home.
feel like dying. and i think i'm sick. damn.
feel like a stupid mute sometimes, hate it.
hope i can change that damn habit.

well, happy birthday,weenah!
sorry i cant celebrate with u yesterday. because it's too late le and my dad will be back home from work.
hope you won't mind. u received my sms right?

AND tomorrow is my mum birthday. don't know what to buy for her ne.
will buy a cake for her.
well, i love you mum. :D

i hate mine

2008-11-20T12:20:00.000+08:00

seriously i hate that i'm a damn december baby.

genting's trip cancelled. hais. thought at least my bday won't be so dull.
at least i won't feel so sad that only alinia can celebrate my bday with me.
but it's cancelled now due to some reasons. but it's okays. i won't force :)

it's just that on my birthday, there's only alinia and cy celebrating for me.
not the whole of thelovelys.

well, i bet nobody read my stupid blog too.
so, nuhh.

adieu.

looking only on the outside..boys

2008-11-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

was watching the repeat of the new mo fan bang bang tang.
there was the boys and hei girl.
the boys name a reason what they don't like abt girls and what they do.
and the girls have to argue back.
and there was this topic, a boy ask why girls always like to chose a bf that got looks.

seriously, i am darn pissed.
like the girls argued that it was boys who like to go with looks.
i totally agreed. boys always like to find a gf with looks and figure.
but they never take a look at an ordinary girl with an ordinary looks, and ordinary figure.
i especially hated it, when they look at you with a making fun of u look.
and even ask their group of friends to look at you, then they talked among each other and laughed.

so what if the girl is not very pretty? what matters the most is the beauty of heart.
no matter how a pretty girl wears, she will always remains pretty in boy's heart.
but a not so pretty girl wears how nice, she will also remains as a not so pretty girl.
please don't judge a person like this. and don't make fun of people.
it hurts, and you always don't realise that u hurt someone.
i may not be pretty but i am who i am.
and those biatchy girls out there, please don't think that u r pretty means anything.
CHECK that u have a kind soul and heart, if not retribution shall befall.

everything in a mess

2008-11-11T15:53:00.000+08:00

i need a job.
i need money.
i need help.
i need to go out.
i need something to vent my anger.

maybe tomorrow i go watch horror movie myself.

2008-11-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i wonder ..

i wonder if i will get thru o's.
i wonder if my birthday would be as great as the others.
i wonder if i can fly to other countries.
i wonder if i died suddenly.
i wonder if u guys wld miss me.
i wonder if u guys wld forgotten about me.

i wonder why.
i wonder.

studying for o's

2008-10-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

hoo.been studying these few days.
doing english assessment and maths.
also geography. just now when to popular and buy some more assessment books to do.

but i think i lost my english paper 1 format for letter writing.
so now i'm a bit worried for my letter writing.

geography also makes me feel nervous. because i don't know how to draw maps.

hais. but i will work hard.i seem to have a hugh wave of confidence in maths now.
but... don't be too over-confident.
hahas. gambate yo~ to me and alinia.

CRAZY!

2008-09-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

WTF!!
YOU THIS OLD HAG! HUH, WHAT DID I DID TO YOU?? I DIDN'T CALL YOU ON THE STREET, BECAUSE YOU ARE A DEMON?? I PUEY!!
YOU OWN SELF SAID SO. I DID NOT SAY THAT YOU ARE A BLOODY DEMON!
I REALLY CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE.
CALL, CALL, CALL!!! EVERY TIME YOU COME BACK, I GOT CALL YOU OKAYS??!!
IDIOT SHIT, BLOODY OLD HAG! CALL YOU ON THE STREET, LATER GO BACK HOME STILL NEED TO GREET YOU AGAIN.

AH MA HERE, AH MA THERE. GO OUT WITH MY MOTHER CANNOT IS IT?! I GIVE YOU RESPECT, YOU BETTER KNOW YOUR LIMITS!
DON'T THINK YOU ARE AN ELDERLY, I DON'T DARE QUARREL WITH YOU, OKAY?!!!
IF THERE'S A NEED, i WILL!
NEVER GREET YOU, YOU COMPLAIN TO MY DAD. OKAY, NOW I GREET YOU NICELY, WHAT REPLY DID YOU F*CKING GIVE ME?!

ME: (CAME BACK HOME WITH MY MUM)AH MA! [GREETED HER IN A NICE TONE.]
HER: ON THE STREET, I NOT YOUR AH MA WHAT. ON THE STREET, I'M A DEMON. AT HOME THEN I'M YOUR AH MA!
WTH! JUST BECAUSE I DIDN'T SAY AH MA TO HER WHEN SEEING HER ON THE WAY OUT, SHE GIVE ME THIS REPLY?! WHAT STUPID NONSENSES IS THIS?!!
STILL DARE BANG THE DOOR. I GREET YOU WHEN I'M BACK OK? IT'S NOT LIKE WHEN I COME BACK, I DIDN'T BLOODY HELL GREET YOU!!!!

you no money. WAHS. very KE LIAN.
salary haven't recieved, complain to my dad. please luhs, my dad not the BOSS okays?!
this week allowance $20 bucks nia. what shit. who KELIAN WO?! huh?! my dad owns me $80 bucks haven't return me yet. (must wait till he get salary on the 12th) then who kelian me?!!!
go relatives' house and ask them buy tonics and stuff, few hundreds dollars, you GOT money. then giving me allowance, 'AH MA NO MONEY'. wahs, tonics and stuff few hundreds got money, if the tonic is buy for us, i nothing to say. BUT IT"S FOR YOUR PRECIOUS DAUGHTER, SO clever.

YOU THINK I ANYHOW SPENT THE DAMN MONEY ARHS?!
I WANT TO SAVE IT FOR MY OWN USE, OKAYS? WHAT DO YOU BLOODY HELL KNOWS?
YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO GO TO YOUR DAUGHTER'S HOUSE AND COMPLAIN. DON'T THINK I'M DUMB. WHEN I WAS YOUNG, YOU BRING ME TO EIR HOUSE AND I KNOW WHAT I HEARD! BAD-MOUTHING MY MUM. I'M NOT STUPID.
MADE ME CRY AT SCHOOL, WHEN I THOUGHT MY MUM RUN OUT OF HOUSE AND NEVER COMING BACK AGAIN.
AND 'OUTSIDERS', IF YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING, JUST SHUT YOUR GAPS. YOU ARE LIVING AT OUR HOUSE, SO WHAT DO YOU BLOODY HELL KNOWS? ONLY LISTEN TO ONE SIDE OF THE STORY, THEN YOU SHOOT ONE MOUTH. THINK YOU DAMN BIG SHOT?! PUEY! YOUR DAUGHTER CALLED OUR HOUSE WANNA REACHED AH MA, JUST SAY LAHS. STILL SAY CALLED WRONG NUMBER. DON'T THINK I STUPID, GOT CALLER ID. I KNOW YOUR NUMBER! AND I REGONISED YOUR VOICE, DEAR COUSIN!
IF YOU GUYS THINK ME AND MY MUM SO EASY TO BULLY,你就试试看吧！

DON'T BLAME MY WICKEDNESS. YOU STARTED IT FIRST. SINCE I WAS YOUNG TILL NOW, HOW MANY YEARS?!! YOU STILL NOT ENOUGH?!!

做贼的喊捉贼！
早知道你当时跌倒，我妈妈就不应该救你。因为救了你，反而害了我们。

还有，‘大姑姑’ 你们一家不要以为你们很厉害。我们家会这样，有一半是你们造成的。
死三八！不知头不知尾，每次都要加一张嘴。如果换成是你们，你喜欢吗？
如果当年我妈妈真的跳楼，我一定要你们难受一子。
一个两个都是贱嘴巴，你们等着噍！
人在做，天在看。你们一定会有报应的！

SERIOUSLY, I HAVE ENOUGH OF YOUR BULL SHITTING!
YOU WANNA COMPLAIN TO MY DAD, SUIT YOU.

AT THAT POINT, YOU DON'T BLAME ME FOR WHAT I'VE GOT TO SAY!

F*CKED UP!

2008-09-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

hey hey. been a great day recently.
except i've been irritated by something happening. so itchy.

damn suay. hate it. well, children's day coming soon. and my daddy's birthday too.
hahas. can't imagine his birthday is on children's day too.lols!!!

have no idea what to get for him yet. maybe celebrating for him.hahs!!

well, some people are just inconsiderate. so late already still sitting in the bench chatting so loudly and playing their guitars.
can't stand it. pleaasee lahs, wanna play or show off, go held one concert for yourself can?
if not YOU are just wasting ur "TALENTS" by just playing downstairs at night.
AND polluting our ears, as well as disturbing us, citizens, from our beauty sleep.

fun and study

2008-09-25T14:08:00.000+08:00

woohoo. yesterday went swimming with alinia and hilary. it was fun, except that i didn't know how to swim already. hahas!!
it's have been almost 8 years since i last swam in a pool. i tried yesterday, but i just can't float.
alinia says that it's because i am scared, that why i can't float.

yahs. i think it's quite true. because i almost drown in a pool 2 times when i'm younger.
and maybe that is why i stopped swimming?? can't remember. lols!
but anyways, after swimming, we go eat at cavana. and after that hil brought her 3 for $15 panties (eerhem, hil, u knows what kind do i meant right??)hahas.

then at ard 8 plus, we reached yishun burger king to study. hahas. anyways, it was fun yesterday.

niaos!!!

2008-09-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

can't wait for 20th september to come!!
hahahs! alinia, i love you (:

beginning of ailes FEELINGS

2008-09-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to start with...
i have think through a lot of things these few days, and i wonder if have changed during these few years.
Maybe... Maybe not...

i tried to stay positive for any obstacles that almost made me collaspe. But, i still survived. :)

FRIENDSHIP... i am feeling very lucky that i know the group of friends that i have now. (theLovelys) And i am very delighted with it. It's not easy to have friends, (true friends) that cared and loved you.

Well, i have.. and i cherished them a lot. In primary school, i don't have many friends. Not to mention when i have shifted house and transferred to a new school. People bullied me on the first day of school. I also remembered how i wanted to join my friends to her friends, but they reject me.
I feel so lonely, i cried at home during the night. And nobody except myself knew.

Maybe, that is the reason why i cried a lot in primary school. I tried not to, but i can't help it. I know the feelings of "being the odd one out" of the group. Then i started to know Alinia and Hil. For the FIRST time, they make me knew that what true friends are for.

I can talked almost anything to them, we trusted each other. (for me, i trusted them) Been through quarrels, been through all kinds of obstacles, been through lots of fun and laughter.

But, i realise that it's been a long time since we have a nice talk together. Maybe it's because we are all busy with our things. But.....

Let's say, recently i always listen to mp3 even if we have reached our destination. I don't know if i am paranoid or what. Somtimes, i felt left out even through there is only 3 people (including me) going out together. Alinia recently told me on msn that why i don't want to talk, we also not strangers. she also said if i never say, how they know what i'm thinking. (now i am talking, because it's been in my heart for quite some time.)

Sometimes i want to talk, but i can't seem to talk. Because there were already people (in pairs talking, when we are going out), so i might as well listen to my music. I think too much, maybe....
Even if i talked, it wouldn't be long. Unless i'm going out with that person alone, or when with Hil and Alinia. Otherwise, i might be interrupt halfway while talking or i don't know. Sometimes i feel really irritated that when i was talking halfway, someone just cut in and talked to the people i have been talking too. To my girls, can you don't be so rude and irritating to do that. If it's one or two time, i'm okay.

Maybe i'm selfish, maybe i don't want to share my friends with others. But please have some basic manners, so that i still respect you. I don't know if i'm started to be drifted away from my girls or what.

To Cheng Yee, well, it's not i don't want to talk to her, but i seriously don't know what to talked about with her (even if there is, it's only a few mintues). Forgive me, if i have offended anyone. But, i simply have to let it out. AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Maybe i am biased towards her or what. But, i find that whenever she is around, i would be left out. It's not that i don't like her, but i just feel this way. I always kept these things in my heart, because i don't want our friendship to fall. But i can't stand it no more. (i still regard her as part if thelovelys.

But, recently i felt that the girls are much closer to her. I saw Alinia's blog, i saw the pictures of Hil's bday celebration.(and she also wrote BFF forever) I feel so left out, like you all are always so happy with cy around and all. That why i told Hil about i'm being the extra girl. Okay, sometimes i may not want to go out. But i really have something on, that doesn't mean i don't want to go out with you guys. Also you girls go back school for teachers' day. also didn't call me along. Although i didnt say anything or i had say nevermind. But i still feel i'm the extra.

Now i'm the only one that haven't collected my testimonial. And i have to go back alone, while cy have u girls accompanying her. Hais... I don't know what to say anymore.
This is what i've think of what to say for now. Just want to let u girls know how i feel. And i still treat u girls as BFF :)